Project day

Or if you are my body...projectile day.

We had a great baby shower last night, making this thing about as real as it can be. My moms and ashs family went overboard and there is little left that we absolutely need. My plan was to organize it all today but my body has other plans...note to self, hot cocoa is delicious, but best drank when there is absolutely no chance of tossing your cookies. It didn't taste so bad, but i didn't make it a few times in my mad dash and made Ash stay far away due to the appearance of it all over the place.

Once my mind and body are back in sync, I will try and post more, but I can't promise how long that will take.


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Christmas is over...

I can't say I am not thankful it is. Stressful trying to get gifts people will like, the running around last minute and all day christmas visiting, and the time it takes to recoup! Ash and I were talking on the way down to see family, how a carseat would fit into a car full of presents, a dog crate, and two very anxious dogs. It's strange to think that next year there won't just be two of us, but three.

Madelyn had her own stocking at my moms house. Our stockings are labeled with baby pictures, hers was with an ultrasound shot. She received some sippy cups and hair bows. Later, at my dads, she got a Columbia vest and pink cameo jumpsuit from cabel.as (my dads fave place). She also got a blanket, some clothes, and toys. She isn't even here yet and already raking in the presents.

The pink vest really put ash into a "omg this is real" moment for some reason. Not the crib, the ultrasounds...but a pink vest. Boys are strange. He is also starting to understand when I am tired or don't feel well, I think he is really trying to taking care of me when he can see how I feel. He's even patting the belly unconsciously when I kiss him goodbye in the morning (usually he is still asleep). It's pretty adorable.

Speaking of adorable, my nephew danger is visiting this week along with his parents (my siblings). Omg he is amazing. Giggly and smiles all day. I think he has cried all of three minutes this week. I have never seen such a happy go lucky kid. I only hope our child is as awesome as he is. What a cool kid.

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My last post

Yes that was one of my many rants. I just needed to clarify that none of those comments are directed to people who actually know me. It seems I become open season to random people at work or that I come into contact with throughout my day. Because, well if you knew me, you'd know that I one hundred percent care about my child and would gain 50 more pounds if she would just gain one.

Just thought that clarification might be necessary as I am not here to hurt the feelings of those around me.


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Shut yo mouth.

Seriously. Why do people feel the need to express their opinion to pregnant ladies? If there is one thing I will learn from all of this is to keep my mouth shut and not offer my say in other peoples business. Lemme explain.

Pregnancy is different for everyone. So just cause you floated through the air glowing while pregnant 20 years ago does not mean I should be. Also, my pregnancy is not "hard" because I read too much or look up information....sometimes people have a harder time carrying a baby. I am not imagining the large ass veins that sting when I stand, or the newly added swollen ankles from working all day. Yes, I "read" my uti/kidney stone (whatever it was) into existance and my nausea until month six (knock on wood). So please...lady at work...I do not need your opinion and to be perfectly honest unless you are billing me 300 dollars an hour, I think I'll trust what my doctor and genetic counselor are saying before you. Thanks.

Random people - thank you for commenting on my size/weight gain/food preference/or guessing my due date for your amusement. I appreciate it. Yes, it's my fault that the baby is smaller than she should be because i am not eating enough or being off my feet more. Oh, and next time you comment on how small a pregnant women is...you may not know she has just gotten bad or disappointing news that her baby isn't growing as fast as they want and gets to stay on high risk, causing her to go into panic attacks about stillborns or early arrivals or hell, freaking out in general.

OF course...it's cause i am doing something wrong! It must be.

Argh!

End of rant!

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12 weeks to go.

Or less. Really it's up to Madelyn. What's funny is I called my hr dept to get the packet regarding short term disability and was surprised at their "call us as close to 30 days before you give birth, then we will send you the info". Really? In my mindnumbing prediction of the future, I would be happy to call exactly 30 days before, but there is very, VERY little chance I will know this magical date prior to it happening. I just wanna know how the pay will work, I know it will just be pennies in comparison to what I can make working, but it would be great to at least have something in writing.

12 weeks. Crazy that I will be a mom, give or take a few weeks.

At times, all I can do is stare in wonder at how my belly is moving and growing a baby, other times I can only try and calm my nerves...trying to convince myself I can do this. The financial aspect, the sheer reality of this life changing experience, there are so many thoughts going through my head, it feels like it's expanding just as much as my belly.

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Yay for the third trimester!

Rounding third base and heading for home plate. This is all becoming so real and so quick! We were able to see Madelyn on the big screen yesterday, she is about 2 lbs and 2 oz and seems to be growing great. A little small (37% percentaile) so they want to keep watching...more ultrasounds! Which is both a good and a bad thing....we get to see her every 4 weeks, bad news is the sheer cost of it all! They forgot to bill our insurance for the first high risk one, we got the bill in the mail for 1400.00! Jesus.

I am really starting into the super uncomfortable stage, filled with leg cramps, waddling on a bad nerve, and stretching that almost hurts just sitting here. That uti cleared up so quickly, I am pretty sure it was actually a kidney stone. I've had one other one in my life and it was pretty painful, but once it was out, it seemed to go away.

In baby stuff news, I am lucky enough to have two cousins just finishing with their infant girl stuff and a brother with his infant boy stuff...being last in the bunch is also like hitting the jackpot! I helped out one cousin yesterday with her holiday cookies and walked away with bags of goods with the promise of more if I need it. How awesome.

So far the things I haven't had to buy -
A swing
A breast pump
Clothes
Diapers
An extra carseat (for Ashs car)
A sling (whohoo!)

Now if only I can locate a babysitting guru that wants to swap my need for Friday nights/Saturday nights for some weekday help!

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An extremely long day

It seems that this kid wants to be an only child. Badly.

I can't even fathom putting my mind and body through a second one of these unless I am a stay at home mom that can put my feet up when I need to.

Today was no different. It started out like any other. Tired, crampy, uncomfortable.
By one, I was starting to get those question mark cramps that hurt enough to question if they were bad cramps or normal just harsher. It turned into painful, crazy cramps and .... Tmi coming...

Peeing blood. Alot of it.

I ended up at my doctors for a same day visit. I was glad to find out they were available on a Sunday. They confirmed a uti. Apparently what would normally have me crying and simpering non pregnant is painless when pregnant. I didn't even know.

The doctor did measure the baby and check the heartbeat. He also told me she is laying diagonal instead of straight up and down...which was cool, because I had thought that was how she was. She moved alot for him and he commented on her "good" viability which was comforting.

I waddled onto work and am just now settling into bed. This weeks agenda is super low key with alot of footrests and water in my future. We have a few things scheduled but I am hoping I can spend alot of downtime just relaxing. I am also hoping I can kick this bladder thing in the butt.
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